Time Within A Klein Bottle

The begining of the end...

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 05:54:40 GMT

Exams are finally over! I received a lot of recognition over the past few weeks.
Newest title claimed: DUX.
Now looking for a job and starting a new journey in life.

Evenings of Moscow's Suburbs

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 05:12:38 GMT

I learnt how to play this song on the guitar.

ПОДМОСКОВНЫЕ ВЕЧЕРА

Не слышны в саду даже шорохи,
Все здесь замерло до утра,
Если б знали вы, как мне дороги
Подмосковные вечера.

Речка движется и не движется,
Вся из лунного серебра,
Песня слышится и не слышится
В эти тихие вечера.

А рассвет уже все заметнее,
Так, пожалуйста, будь добра,
Не забудь и ты эти летние
Подмосковные вечера.





Не слышны в саду даже шорохи,
Все здесь замерло до утра,
Если б знали вы, как мне дороги
Подмосковные вечера.

Last day of term 3

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 05:01:49 GMT

Solitude.
Left school after 3rd period. Yesterday I got my results for UMAT. Satisfied.
So much done yet so much to do still.
So much to write about but nothing ever comes out.

I have learnt so much more about people.
People are far too complex but the complexities interest me.
I am undecided about a lot of things.
I want too much and my expectations are too high.

In physics we watched the last episode of DR WHO season 3.
It wasn't the best but it kind of influenced me to become a doctor.
A doctor.
The Doctor.
Funny.

A lot of things to pick up where I left them and a lot of things to let go.
Just let go. It's not over.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 01:01:09 GMT

Today at 12 I will see this movie!! And the last book comes out next week!!!!!!
Damn it no internet. And still no internet for the next few days.
Pretty glad that i have changed times for classes. Ah..things are about to change at last.
I'm on fire.

Hello again

Fri, 06 Jul 2007 11:52:14 GMT

It's no use trying to write a journal every week. It gets boring and repetative.
Well all I can say is I've achieved much academically as usual. But that's not enough.
What can I do? I don't want to find a job right now and I really don't like taking orders.
Am I a stereotypical bookwork who has absolutely no use at all?
I hope not. But I'm not about to sway from the path just for some petty riches.

I'm starting to see more clearly about the people and events around me and have made some unexpected moves. I have no regrets about anything. Everyone has a freedom to choose.

I move again next week. A new habitat. Good exercise. Need to get ready for the week of July 25. Oh such a big week. Can I live up to it?

Week 14

Sun, 27 May 2007 06:59:22 GMT

The only event I can remember is the Hamlet performance at QPAC. It was good except they cut out Fortinbras - the man of action.

HAMLET: Witness this army of such mass and charge
Led by a delicate and tender prince,
Whose spirit with divine ambition puff'd
Makes mouths at the invisible event,
Exposing what is mortal and unsure
To all that fortune, death and danger dare,…(4.4.47-52)

I am procrastinationg...

Week...

Sat, 26 May 2007 13:50:11 GMT

This is the week where I have done everything.
Chess tournement on Tuesday. Ashamed of myself. Lost against opponents B.L. C.B. D.A. and the little red nut. But still had a good time.
Physics asssignment done.
First one to perform the English task with no preparations. Such a relief.
Maths C assignment also handed in.
Ignored people and vice versa.
And today saw Pirates of the Carribean 3. It is epic. Need to see it a few more times to fully understand. Then installed broadband. 2 weeks without internet is torture.
At last time off to myself.

Week 13

Mon, 07 May 2007 10:53:51 GMT

Let's see:
Monday. With all thy might awards on assembly...blah blah blah.
Tuesday. Parent Teachers interview. No fourth period class. Went to the city with friends. Yifei found a mobile and brought it to me. Together we fumbled 360 degrees around the Winter Garden looking for the owner who works in one of the hair salons. I want a nice hair-cut.
An old woman lost her ten-trip ticket and I gave her mine without thinking. Jesus chirst! Why have suddenly become a do gooder?
Wednesday. I went with Mel to the RBH. We were goofing around in the shops. Then we talked for a bit on the grass outside. She really is my opposite which is good because I can learn to balance myself from her.
Then at night, I finally got someone talking. But then I had bagpipe lessons. Damn it! How rude I must seem to him.
I blame it on the full moon.
Thursday. Hide and seek. I'm an idiot.
Friday. Rejected.

Today is a public holiday. The weekend was alright. I saw Spiderman 2 on TV. XD. I will see Spiderman 3.
I am so emotionally confused. I know what I feel and want but how can I get it without risking what I have now?
I think I made it clear on Friday. It wasn't so good. Timing is very important.
Maybe it wasn't meant to be but then again the signs keep coming.
I wish I could read people's minds.M

Week 12

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 07:42:44 GMT

I vaguely remember...
Monday. Mr Winter did not come. Maths C parametric equations. ACER test awards on assembly.
Hmm...move the basketball off the chair, but not willingly. Blue looks better than silver grey boxers.
Arts/Humanities/Social Sciences but not Maths/Science. Such a shame.
Walked to RBH.
Tuesday. ANZAC ceremony. Nice and short. Janika told me about UMAT. Draw with Anand.
Wednesday. Public holiday. First pizza meal since the start of the year. Finished Biology report. No bagpipes.
Thursday. Saw Mr Sherman on the bus in the morning. He's eccentric as ever. We exchanged opinions on Shakespeare.
I have decided to see Hamlet.
Friday. Went to the city with Maddie, Liz and Nick. Maddie and Liz showed me a comic book store. I bought a MAD magazine for Anand's birthday. Oh I finished the Maths C assignment within 2 hours. It's so easy!
Saturday. Fashion parade. Once again I want to learn dancing. Charm.

On Shakespeare and my own solitude

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 11:35:49 GMT

This is what I like most about holidays - I'm on my own. Sometimes I just want to be a loner and do nothing but think.
I think I've been living in a fantasy. I've been believing false illusions of people and things.
Wake up and snap out of it Sarah!!

Shakespeare must really have a great understanding of human nature. I just couldn't resist copying the quotes from Macbeth, Julius Caesar, King Lear and Hamlet. It's all too deep and my mind is feeble.
Love is all too afar, but ambition, the need for action, motivation, success, failure, fortune, courage, the true meaning of life and death strikes a chord.
Oh consistency! And the flooding of the tide!

...

There is a tide in the affairs of men,
Which, taken at the flood, leads on to fortune;
Omitted, all the voyage of their life
Is bound in shallows and in miseries.

Ice-skating

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 07:24:17 GMT

Today I went ice-skating with Jackson and Yifei. It was great!
Jackson is a pro and Yifei is a really fast learner.
My knees are swollen.

On Sunday I went to Sarah's place to help her with the physics quiz.
It was ok. I like her music. It's a good idea to listen to the soundtracks of movies and build from there.
Oh and I've started to learn programming. Python.

Tenth week of school

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 07:46:00 GMT

Finally holidays!
Well. English was great! My presentation was worth the effort. Maths B is in brilliant standard. Physics and Chemistry... I don't know yet. The teachers are either slack or on leave. Oh but Maths C. Next time next time...

My name appeared on the newsletter. Lame... not. I love chess. I'd do anything for the team. Guess what i found on the newsletter - Free bagpipe lessons! And it's across the road where I live. So of course I went last night. The people are really nice. My teacher has been playing for 68 years! And another guy lent me his chantel.

And today! Shakspeare, Hamlet. Sudoku in the first half of Maths B. Second half in music block. Skipped chemistry and biology! Oh my god! First time ever! Somethings are just "out of sight out of mind". Like I would pay to see a bald head.

Easter holidays. Yay!

Ninth week of school

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 07:39:36 GMT

EXAMS!
I had a fever on Monday... Maths C complex reasoning just went down... But everything else is fine. Close to 100% I hope.
And I have finally finished the English assignment! Life is just one damn thing after another.

Well, the library has now become a very nice social place. People coming in just to talk or maybe other reasons.
I should really pay attention to what's happening around me because right now I can't think of anything to say.
Jesus christ! How do you get to know people?

Oh yeah! I was given an AUM symbol. Powerful... The new RBH building isn't too bad. Would I want to work there?

态度

Thu, 29 Mar 2007 08:55:06 GMT

你不能决定生命的长度，但你可以控制它的宽度；
你不能左右天气，但你可以改变心情；
你不能改变容貌，但你可以展现笑容；
你不能控制他人，但你可以掌握自己；
你不能预知明天，但你可以利用今天；
你不能样样顺利，但你可以事事尽力。

Eighth week of school

Sun, 25 Mar 2007 05:38:10 GMT

My English assignment is killing me....
Next time, I swear I'm never going to leave it til the last minute. Oh well, the chances of being presented twelve 5s on my report card is small. Bloody hell. And I made one small mistake on my Maths B exam. Darn! It's painful being a perfectionist.
Let's see, I did fine on the QCS Trial test. But I can't believe I did better in English than maths in the ACER test. Some guy who achieved a C in Maths A actually did better than me.
I am not Lucy. She's cool and I really want to achieve her record but I am not her. I am me - Sarah. I should try and block the pressure that is exerted on to me by other people. A clean slate. A calm attitude. What's mine is mine, what isn't will never be.
Harmony Day was ok. I wore my special red hat. Reminds me of Jews. They're smart.
Next week - exams!

Sixth week of school

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 05:34:00 GMT

All is well. More and more people are coming to the library each morning which means that I have started a trend.
Chess, Harmony Day, Senior Leader and Social justice meetings are continuing. The Year 12 Common Room will open on Monday according to plan. The Chemistry assignment was confusingly done in the morning but I prepared thoroughly for the Physics document study - the four fundamental forces and answered the questions with ease. The Biology literature review was fine (Matt likes Opeth too) and I secretly feel that my English assignment achieved high marks. The Maths B assignment was handed out and I finished it in one night...Blah blah blah... Oh and I must mention the Senior Breakfast! I'm sorry but really don't like the food. The speech was long and boring but it was sincere. Like always, I am fascinated by the resemblance between students and their parents. The power of genetics!

Ok. Enough of that. The highlights of this week exist outside of school. Everyday after school I am in the nicely air-conditioned city library with friends. Studying, talking, reading - I have a much better understanding of them which is unusual for me because I'm never close to anyone. Sometimes, spending many hours with the same people makes me want to run away from them. I don't know why. I thrive in groups but still prefer being a loner. Also, after attending Sarah and Anand's lecture, I have no regrets about not applying for QUT Start. It's a waste of time for me and I choose hardcore.
What else? Chess tournement, UQ neuroscience lecture and Senior dance next week... What made me smile? Disney fantasia, Robin hood: men in tights, a future Tintin movie, being able to play the chords to Осколок Льда and friends.

...

Ария - Осколок Льда

Ночь унесла тяжелые тучи,
Но дни горьким сумраком полны.
Мы расстаемся - так будет лучше,
Вдвоем нам не выбраться из тьмы...

Я помню все, о чем мы мечтали,
Но жизнь не для тех, кто любит сны.
Мы слишком долго выход искали,
Но шли бесконечно вдоль стены...

Я любил и ненавидел,
Но теперь душа пуста.
Все исчезло, не оставив и следа,         
И не знает боли в груди осколок льда... 

	Припев

Пусть каждый сам находит дорогу -
Мой путь будет в сотню раз длинней
Но не виню ни черта, ни Бога
За все платить придется мне!

Я любил и ненавидел,
Но теперь душа пуста.
Все исчезло, не оставив и следа,
И не знает боли в груди осколок льда... 
И не знает боли в груди осколок льда...

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Fifth week of school

Sat, 03 Mar 2007 07:10:36 GMT

This week has been busy. I have 4 assignments to work on. English, biology, physics and chemistry! The Senior Leaders Induction Ceremony was enjoyable.
Chemistry is so annoying right now. Why must we design an experiment with no given details whatsoever?
And my calculator doesn't have conics! I'm starting to feel the pressure from rivals....
Good thing is I have made new friends and had got to know more about old friends.
I think this year will depend more on group effort.
Oh and I finished reading Hannibal Rising. The ending is satisfying but it really isn't the Hannibal that I know of.

春节快乐！

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 10:39:59 GMT

今天的周记改用中文写了。好亲切呀。真害怕时间久了把中文给忘记了。那三年就可惜了。
星期一：
平平常常。课堂上能学点东西。还是多听少说为妙。
星期二：
紧张难受。明天是情人节。我和好友去开学生会，顺便了解了一下这学期国际象棋的安排。
星期三：
情人节。想不到收到了来自Sasha和Andrew的两朵玫瑰。Sarah给了我一袋巧克力。
今年的多元文化节我是搞定了。下午，我陪着他们到了大学买教科书。
星期四：
游泳比赛。坐在讲台上看实在没意思。我一定要学会游泳。
星期五：
上完了一天的课后很累。英语作业挺麻烦的。密切观察理发师，顺便在同学家待了一会。
星期六：
三十。给家里打电话。跟舅舅聊天真好，每次都能学到点东西。
晚上跟着妈妈到唐人街碰到了同学。挺好的。
星期日：
祝我自己心想事成。

Second week of school

Sun, 11 Feb 2007 07:44:44 GMT

And so another dramatic week has come to pass.
People are crazy, life is crazy and I am going crazy.
I'm glad to be on speaking terms with Lachlan but it's still uncomfortable.
All my friends have their problems as well, so I have to be strong for them.
I am now part of the Senior Leaders Commitee and must get ready for Harmony Day.
Textbooks were collected on Thursday and my biology project will be on the contagiousness of yawning.
My friends got their ID Cards on Friday and showed them the QUT library.
On Saturday, I went to Sarah's BBQ. Her sister is going away. It was nice.
I'm just relieved that this week has not been the worst.
Thank heaven for Anand's book The Godfather. It has made me see past those unecessary troubles.
And now I have Sasha's Hannibal Rising!
I believe everything will change for the better.

...

Renewed shall be blade that was broken, the crownless again shall be king.

First week of school

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 09:49:15 GMT

Very dramatic. My classes haven't changed. Everyone else has.
They're prepared and alas, more rivalry. I guess this will push me forward.
I attended the first SRC meeting on Thursday and it was ok.
I expressed my interest and proposed the chess tournement for the senior school.
I have applied for the Senior Leaders Chair. The interview was short. I was honest.
All I know is that I'm definitely in.
And lastly, I was dumped. I saw it coming. It was extremely painful.
We should move on. I have my suspicions and doubts but I guess it was for the best.
Right now it's killing me inside...
My only comfort is reading the Godfather. It's better than the movie.
I admire Michael Corleone's character. I will be ok.
Isn't it ironic, I said it was going to be a great year.
I swear I'll make it happen.

Wittgenstein & RoboRats

Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:43:37 GMT

I suppose I'm the only person reading right now.
True, the holidays are not over, but I want my mind stimulated.

Philosophy
Metaphysics
Epistermology
Logic

Wittgenstein - A Wonderful Life

"Perhaps what most marked Wittgenstein's character was his often-professed desire to be perfect.
This high - indeed impossible - standard had a major impact upon all who came to know him.
His tormented nature, his unceasing search for truth, his inability to suffer fools gladly, and his apparent lack of humour all attest to a modern-day mystic. He died of cancer in 1951. Surprisingly enough, given how unsatisfied he seemed with the mundane world around him, according to his friend Norman Malcolm his last words were:
"Tell them I've had a wonderful life!"

(c) Dr Timothy J. Madigan 2006

RoboRats

http://www.wireheading.com/roborats/ratbot.html

Mind control...

Quid pro quo doctor...

Sun, 21 Jan 2007 06:01:13 GMT

I should mention that sounds are magnified in my building.
At night I enjoy the music of bagpipes and today while my neighbour is
having a Lord Of The Rings movie marathon, I'm watching Silence Of The Lambs.
Jodie Foster and Anthony Hopkins are great actors and this movie really gives me the creeps.
There's this new novel by Thomas Harris called Hannibal Rising which I have booked already.
Hope its good as the previous.

Open Hearts

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 10:52:03 GMT

I saw the Danish film Open Hearts on SBS last night.
It was both sad and happy at the same time. Now I think I can understand how and why those things happen.
Love is unreasonable.

I spent the rest of the day reading The Mallen Streak. It's about human realtionshps as well I'm afraid.
It was quite different from the other books I've read before.

The balcony is a nice place to think. The city lights are bright and blurry to me but I really want to see stars.
NUMB3RS isn't as good as it first seems. It's turning into a soap.

Enough!

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 04:43:09 GMT

6 days to go and I have had enough. I'm sick of being in the state I am in.
Centre Stage was a good movie. Now I will finish reading the book about Quantum Physics.

De Broglie!

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 07:17:46 GMT

"I am convinced that the wave/particle duality discovered by Einstein in his theory of light quanta is absolutely general and extends to all the physical world.
It seems certain to me that the propagation of a wave is associated with the motion of a particle of any sort... Photon, electron, proton or any other. "

E = energy
m = mass
c = speed of light
p = momentum (of photon)
f = frequency
λ = wavelength
h = Plank's constant

Starting from              E = mc^2
                                = mc * c
                                = p * c
                                = p * fλ

Also:                             E = h * f
Therefore:                   h * f = p * fλ
Therefore:                   λ = h / p

"This means that if the wavelength of light is decreased, the momentum of the individual light photons is increased."